You should never close yourself out when people become close from seeing the real you. If they don't accept you for who you are, they are not worth it. Not in the sense that they aren't worth anything as a being, but someone who will judge, use or mistreat you isn't wroth your time. You should never feel the need to constantly prove your self worth, because your self worth is infinite. Everyone has it.
You should never let the area you live in stop you from making friends. Because there are gems hidden throughout the world. You just have to dig a little deep to find them.
If you close out the rest of the world, or 'shut your brain', rather, it can lead to sadness, anger & even worse, emptiness. The soul is not void. It should never be caste away.
Pain is something we all feel. For most people, it can be seen negatively. But when you look through the hurt, through the tears, & finally ask yourself 'why', you can begin to find the true meaning of pain. To myself, pain is a good thing. It means that I have the ability to care for something so much, that when it's taken away, I react. Just living for something precious to myself is what makes being alive worth living. Pain is a hardship, but it allows us to build an exterior, creating character. It produces resilience & helps defines what we stand for.
Just something to think about.. xx